I have been living in Italy since 2000, the slight adaptions I undertook went unoticed initially. As more time goes by, I realize I fit in more in Italy and less in the United States. I should say that once back to my home country the old ways seem to comfortably creep back in, but in a transformed way...as though I was experiencing the old ways through new thought filters and different points of view. Sometimes I don't see the amusement in jokes, and often get hurt over something they see as normal..yet I do not. I feel estranged or as people see me in this way. I will never be an Italian either, the blood counts only for having children! The mentality I am seeping into..but will never transform into being 100% Italian either. So, what am I then? I have been asking myself that, and fear tells me that I will never be able to erase this psychological change in me-- to be viewed as normal in at least one of the two countries.
I sent my mother a letter, she sent it back ... she couldn't figure out what I wrote, she asked me what happened to me..she didn't understand the sense, it was my unawareness,and a mix between English & Italian

A man without a country!
A country without a man!
We are citizen of the world!!
Thats' it!!!!